its totally not working out for me. seriously, blogging is getting more complicated than usual. i cant really go on everyday and update my blog. it gets tiring. and the points to talk about here in my blog... erased that on my agenda. i think i'll make this as a public journal and put everything in it... and i mean EVERYTHING.
taking a detour from my insanity up there ^^^... i thought i should share something abnormal that i did today... SO usually i wouldnt talk about my plans out loud with my mom or dad... but earlier today, i asked my mother if i can go out on the day of my birthday... and here was the conversation between us:
ME: mom can i go out on my birthday? PLEAAAAAASE???
MOM: you cant... who's gonna pick up your brother from school?
ME: ask dad to do it for the day... come on mama i spent last year's birthday home alone with nothing to do... i was really bored... and besides we're just gonna go eat out :(
MOM: no shiela... you dont even have money to treat your friends to go out and eat... shame on you.
ME: i'm not the one paying though... john is.
MOM: oh so its only the two of you going out to eat then huh....?
ME: yeah... :D
MOM: /sighs... well you have to ask your dad.
ME: O_O...................................
ok so my dilemma... i know what my dad would tell me... he's going to think that its a date [which it is... i think] with a BOY... and he doesnt approve of that. but i also know that if i didnt try and make an effort to ask my dad, i could never forgive myself because i'm not putting any effort into a relationship that i'm trying to build up. when would be the perfect time to ask him? what would his reaction be? if he says no, how can he let go of me when i decide to get married [which is 8 years from now]? i'll try tomorrow....
"try and try until you succeed" -this applies perfectly to my situation... and the answer to my dilemma... or part of it....
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