let me just say that i've been happy throughout all those years that i've been with him. almost 3 years... my longest but somehow still weak relationship no matter how much i try to understand our differences. we had plans for our future, but we had different views on certain things. of course i let it go because... well... i loved him. for so long i believed i gave it my all... i believed my love was undying and unconditional. i believed that despite all the breakups throughout our relationship, things will change for the better. even though the people close to me kept telling me to just let this one go, i still held on in the name of love. well, this mistake got me screwed over. turns out the guy doesnt have enough confidence towards his girlfriend (me). instead of asking me personally, he goes on assuming things that doesnt even make sense to me. i was madly inlove... how could i do the things he was accusing me? it was a mistake... but i had a choice... i just wasnt fast enough in realizing what had happened. next thing i know, i was angry at myself and his accusations. myself for being so stupid and his accusations for being so inaccurate. really, he should've just asked me instead.
well that's that for the love life... is there a new one you may ask? after him, there were two... but those didnt really work out... the first one i thought was going great at first but then things got weird and now i think i lost him as a friend as well. its sad but i guess i'll live. the second one was just a simple fling... so i dont consider it as a love life... i didnt have feelings for the guy... i was just using him to get over mr. almost 3 years... right now, i'm just seeing where life would take me. of course i have control over things because it requires decisions made by myself. so far, no regrets with those decisions. so far, i'm happy with my life. so far, life is treating me to a joyful ride with ups and downs... and turn arounds. haha.
oh... the first time i applied to the nursing program, i got rejected. it wasnt my year because i rushed my classes. now i know better. anyway, this year i applied to 3 nursing programs... california state university, los angeles; california state university, bakersfield; and los angeles county school of nursing and allied health. the first two are for BSN and the last one is for ADN. if i dont get into CSULA, i'll be in CSUB. if i dont get it on both, LACUSC it is. i've got my hopes up for CSUB though because i have a bigger chance of getting into the program and graduate with a BSN. and my aunt can help me. haha... perks :D. i'd feel sad leaving all the friends i've made in CSULA though... i hope they'd visit me if time permits. haha. after all this shit is done, and i'm fully stable, i'll get back to flirting. juuuuuuust kidding! but i'll be more open to relationships.
so usually i end my posts with a quote... but i cant think of anything right now... so i'll just post in 3... 2... 1... GO!
